Munching on a ham cheese sandwich in the morning on Friday
cruising down the pacific highway thinking bout the day ahead.
Come to think of it if Chuck Berry and Thirsty Merc started playing togetherI would pay to see it.
Things bode well for me and my little world, I’m actually rather happy, shocking I know (omg guys! is he really going to post something positive!!!) Yes and no. and maybe. The truth be told I have no idea what’s coming and for once I’m not scared by that, I’m okay not knowing what’s coming round the bend. I've started my new job 3 days into my new store and after my weeks training and I haven’t had a mental break down, I’ve even managed to make a few people smile and laugh. But I have my concrete setting, I have my job and my home, and food on the table and money slowly coming into the bank and with that I am okay. I have my bad days still full of demons hanging over my head and as always resistant to morteen, but with what is beginning I think I can at least start to ignore them, or picture them naked whichever works best.
The world of women still refuses to become part of my own, but its early days, some have floated further away but reserved me for coffee and biscuits later down the track some have gone altogether and good riddance to them I say. Off with the dead. A few things I’ve been thinking lately, that’s one of them, just weird little connections in my head. Off with the dead. The dead to me, the ineffectual, I don’t even know if that’s a word but I imagine you’ll all get it, those who know longer matter care or mind. Vanquished into the eternal darkness of memories lost forgotten or not cared for.
I think I should do this more often, for the sake of my head, and for the sake of my writing, it’s not all that good but someday it might be. I'd love to write an epic, a tale of awe and anguish, something to make a kid like me look to the future and think maybe someday I’ll be like that. Just as the authors I’ve read do for me.
And if all goes astray then maybe I’ll just staple it together and call it bad weather.
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